Think for yourself


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I suppose this is the journey I’m now on


My girlfriend and I have been on two opposite sides of something very important. Something I needed her support on, something I needed her to get behind, because somehow I had convinced myself that if she could just get behind it, if she could just tell me that she was okay with it then somehow I would be okay with it too. I was looking to her to defend it, to give it pro points so it can be worthy enough to me but she didn’t. Instead she attacked it and told me of all the reasons why I am on the wrong side, that I am making the wrong choice, quick disclaimer though, life is as unpredictable as change and if I am infact wrong, then so be it. Then I’ll be wrong, I’ll be knocked off my pedestal and I will pick myself up as I have before and my life will go on as it always has, but if I am right, and I let this very important thing go because I am here waiting for someone else to see how amazing it is, how it challenges me in ways that I didn’t expect, how it is teaching me all these things that I couldn’t even see, because I didn’t want to see any of it, because the one person who I wanted to think and feel for me was feeling what felt to me as wrong, and who’s fault is that?


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Of course it’s all my fault! Because I can’t have someone thinking for me, what’s my brain for? While she’s thinking for me where do I park my brain? What is so important, that while I think of it I have to outsource all my other thoughts to my friend? Seriously what is wrong with me? It’s almost laughable except it only makes me want to cry, because all this is so sad. To have done what I was doing, I mean it yielded the result that it did and in the end, I have learned so much but the process is truly brutal. To look at myself and want to slap myself so hard, or sit myself down and give myself a stern talking to for being so lazy and mediocre and whatever the opposite of enlightened is. It’s funny, my mother had to quite literally beg me to read Conversations With God and now I live by it, and now because of it, I am being introduced to myself each day. It’s because of this beautiful book that I came to this very conclusion.


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I think that for anyone going through what I was/am going through, this is probably one of the best pieces of advice anyone could give.


The conclusion here is that to be great, to be enlightened, to be of independent thought, to be the me that I aspire to be,  I can’t be who I was, I can’t be the girl to say “just tell me what to do and I’ll do it”, that can’t be who I am if I aspire to be someone capable of making her own choices. I simply can’t be lazy about it. I have to sit down and ask myself the hard questions and come up with answers for myself and own the consequences they yield. I have to be the one to decide; what I’m doing, where I’m going, who stays in my life and who leaves, because no one else knows what I know, no one is on the same journey as me, so no one else can make the choices on my behalf. I have to be a big girl about this, about all of it, and think for myself, because that’s what big girls do.



Social support

It’s funny, you know sometimes I marvel at the things that I have come to write about. Recently it’s been feeling like the people around me are having a hard time with stuff, all different stuff but struggling all the same and it really got me thinking about social support. First of all, I will say that being able to emotionally support the people I love, has been such a learning experience and it has really helped me grow.

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Secondly, I know that when most of us are having a hard time, our first instinct is to crawl into our caves of safety and just regroup or worry and panic and for some of us fall into depression and I only know this because that’s exactly what I do. I don’t know how to ask for help until I feel like I am actually dying inside and that just shouldn’t be the case for anyone. Granted I didn’t have anyone who made me feel safe enough to just let go and be vulnerable but still, no one should let it ever get that bad. Ask for help, you’d be surprised how many people around you love you enough to drop everything and just be there for you.

Here is what brought this on…

I was having a conversation with one of my girlfriends, she’s having an interesting time dealing with some pretty heavy stuff and as she opened up to me I remember thinking I am so glad I get to be here for her, I am so glad she doesn’t have to do this alone, I am so glad that I am strong enough to be someone’s rock. And I know, leave it to me to make someone’s story all about me but to get back to the point, it made me curious about social support and all that stuff.

First of all, what is social support?

Social support is the perception and actuality that one is cared for, has assistance available from other people, and that one is part of a supportive social network.

So what’s my point in all this? Social support is important and the easiest way to receive it is by giving it to the people around you who need it. I found that there is good evidence that social support plays one of the biggest roles in mental health as well as overall wellbeing. Also, that social support helps reduce feelings of isolation depression and anxiety and that individuals who experience social support are happier. Isn’t that great?

Untether yourself

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I hadn’t planned on writing this but the one thing that I love about being a blogger is that inspiration comes from everywhere and when it does you receive it with arms wide open.

I was talking to a good friend of mine the other day and it rang so close to home about an incident I have dealt with personally. A lot of times when we meet people who speak to our souls we tether ourselves. We play out scenarios in our head and we make plans and most of the time with no consideration for the future. Now, this is not to say that we shouldn’t plan, we should absolutely plan but if we have plans involving someone else, then maybe run your plans by them and see if you guys are vibrating on the same level and if you aren’t that’s okay.

And the second thing is that sometimes we are in these ….

Okay, maybe I should start with telling you guys what brought this on. My former best friend and I were friends for seven years and at that time I remember fighting tooth and nail just to keep us together because of the history that we had garnered over the years and because of my loyalty to the friendship. I don’t know how many of you are loyal but for those of you who are then you understand my dilemma. In my head, there was no way I could walk away from this friendship even though we had nothing in common. Even though the friendship wasn’t adding any value to my life, even though it wasn’t challenging me to grow anymore.

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I had managed to tether myself to it, and to her. All alone I chained myself and convinced myself that the only way I could move forward was if my former best friend was in my life, the only way I could grow is if she remained in the picture and so I was stuck, because everything was showing me that the only way out of this cage I had built for myself was if I let her go. Even though she and I had our official breaking up in August it’s something I had been mauling over for the past year and a half. I knew that I wanted to be free but I just couldn’t untether myself. I’m not sure what the exact message here is but I am hoping that you can decipher it for yourself. I don’t want you to be a prisoner to anyone or anything. I want you to be free, to grow, to flourish and to shine and the only way you can do that is by untethering yourself from that situation or that person you have convinced yourself you can’t live without.

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Most of the time we have the strength to do pretty much anything and what makes us limit ourselves is not that we’ll fail, it’s that we’ll succeed beyond all our expectations so instead of bursting out of our cages, we hide in cages we have built for ourselves and make excuses and then feel sorry for ourselves. I can tell you with full confidence that untethering has great rewards. Once I was able to let go of my dead friendship I made new ones that challenge me and force me out of my comfort zone constantly, and in a good way. I’ve made Friendships that sharpen me physically, mentally and spiritually and that’s just what I needed. This is my story but I’m certain you have yours. You know what you are tethered to and I am telling you that it’s time to untether yourself, and more importantly, it’s okay to let go. I know you think you’ll fall but I know you’ll fly instead.

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Good friends

You know my favorite thing about growing up is growing up. I love how it feels to know better and not kick myself when I’m down. That was a side note. Today, we are talking about friends and how to distinguish the good ones from the other ones who are in the regular pile. We all know what friends are right?! But what makes a friend a good friend?!
A good friend is supportive but at the same time a good friend will challenge you. I think to me this is the most important aspect of a friendship. Having people around who challenge me, not just regular people, people I call friends. Your friends should challenge you to be better because that’s what good friends do. They keep moving the goal post for you if you won’t move it for yourself. This is where I think guys fall short because guys don’t want to be challenged, they want to be comfortable. But in truth and without bias we all want to be comfortable, a lot of the time we don’t have it I ourselves to push the boundaries of comfort and mediocrity. This is where the good friend comes in. They know you, they see the problem and they come to help.
A good friend is there when you need them. You need to realize that your friends are human beings, they aren’t part human and part psychic. Don’t expect them to read your mind. If you need them let them know. A good friend might not always be there when you want them but they will always, always be there when you need them. Remember that.
A good friend will tell you when you are wrong. This is needed. Not only that but is super important. Life is a series of choices. Everything is a choice. The most important thing you can have is someone who can help you through some of those choices especially when you are making the wrong one. This is very important. A good friend is not afraid to not be on the same page as you because they know that your relationship is built on a solid foundation.
A good friend has your best interest at heart. In all honesty this one needs no explanation. They have your best interest at heart period! They want what’s best for you even though it might not be the best thing for them. And before this is taken out of context let me give an example. The other day my best friend told me that she has an opportunity to leave school for a semester to work and this would mean that I won’t be able to see her at school anymore but I told her to take it anyway because that opportunity might be the only one for a while and I wouldn’t want her to miss it for anything.




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